Can you tell how busy I am? ;-P

I am trying to make some decisions about my future in the next few days, weeks, months, etc.
I am meeting to discuss my future at my new job tomorrow and I don't know what I'm going to say. The people here are nice and the work I do get is intersting, but I am afraid that they don't have enough for me. And I also don't want to make any kind of long term commitment.

I am at this point where I'm getting pretty restless. I have actually grown to love the intimate feeling of Santa Cruz, but now I realize that I might not be able to stay forever. The fact that my family is all close is nice, but they are settled. I probably won't be able to find a "real" profesional job here and therefore probably won't be able to afford a house. Not that I'm shopping for mortgage brokers just yet, but I would like to think about thinking about a place to call my own.

Given all this, I am at the point in my life where I feel like I should take some risks. I'm restless. Veronica mentioned that I should come live with her when she and Tracy move out in June and now I am seriously considering it. And if you know me and how resistant I am to change, you know what a big step this would be for me. One of the problems is that I don't really like LA. It's so crowded. I need some space to myself or I start to get agitated and over stimulated. If I could find a place that has parking and a job that doesn't require me to travel through hours of traffic daily I think I just might be able to do it.

After all, the mold in my place is probably slowly killing me anyway.

P.S. Veronica's visiting this weekend and I am VERY excited.